Well it’s unfortunate but I still miss her a little bit. I know I shouldnt but it’s tough not to. I’m talking to a bunch of other girls but none seem to compare. I know I’m over her, that’s a fact, but it doesn’t mean I don’t miss her. I miss the good times we had. We used to sit around and cuddle all the time. Go out to eat even though we couldn’t afford it. Do the most random shit together. I wish it didn’t have to end up how it did. I wish we could have kept a close relationship because I do still care about the girl. I know the girl I used to love is still in there somewhere, she’s just lost right now. The worst part is, I’m not gonna be the one to help her get back to herself. I’m making myself promise not to let her back into my life, even when she comes crawling back. If that ever happens. But for right now, everyday gets a little easier. I don’t think about her quite as much now that I know what kind of person she has become. Every once in awhile she seems to slip into my head and you know what, that’s ok. I guess I don’t want to completely forget about her. She was my first love and that’s not meant to last. At least that’s what everyone tells me. That also makes it a little easier to stop thinking about her. I smashed one of the Christmas presents she made me. I just figured what it said on it wasn’t true anyway so why keep it? Anyway I feel it getting easier and easier to move on. Hopefully I don’t hit a road block and take a bunch of steps back.
