It’s been decided. We are no longer gonna talk to each other, at all. I already miss her smile. It sucks that I still dream about her almost every night. I wonder if she is thinking about me. This is probably for the best. Seeing her and texting her so much was really making it hard for me to face reality. Sometimes I wonder if we can ever be together again, but it looks like that is never gonna happen. The thing is, I’m not sure if I still love her. I mean, I’ll always love her, but I don’t think I’m in love with her anymore. I finally got angry about the whole situation. It made me realize I don’t deserve to be treated the way she treated/treats me. I deserve someone who is gonna be completely devoted to me and be faithful. Sometimes I wonder if I should tell the guy about us hooking up. No one deserves to be cheated on and never know about it. No one deserves to feel the way I felt all summer. As much as I hate the guy, he deserves to know. I’m gonna miss her a lot but there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m glad we decided to stop this nonsense. I couldn’t keep doing that to myself. I’m sick of crying over the same old shit. It’s time for me to move on and get the hell out of this town. It’s easier said than done but I need to try and make it happen.
