February 2012
7 posts
Had another dream last night… You were single again and called me… I said fuck you and deuces!
I’m wasting away.
Ya, I’ll always love who you were.. As for who you’ve become, I don’t really care for.
Stop having dreams! Please. She’s not coming back
Everything ends in the end.
Keep having dreams about her. They aren’t all bad though. Some are about some good times we had together… We were so happy together! Oh wellllllll
It’s hard to forget about someone you made so many memories with…
January 2012
10 posts
Another dream about her… Im hoping this stops soon. I want her out of my head.
Well it’s unfortunate but I still miss her a little bit. I know I shouldnt but it’s tough not to. I’m talking to a bunch of other girls but none seem to compare. I know I’m over her, that’s a fact, but it doesn’t mean I don’t miss her. I miss the good times we had. We used to sit around and cuddle all the time. Go out to eat even though we couldn’t...
I don’t really know what’s going on in my life right now. I’m pretty lonely. I can’t say that I’m not enjoying this semester off but I also can’t say that it’s all it’s cracked up to be. I sit around most of the day. And it may not be surprising, but I still think about her. I hate it. I don’t want anything to do with her and who she has...
Get out of my head. I don’t need this anymore.
I told the guy about us hooking up. The most amazing part is that when I spoke to her on the phone she tried to deny the whole thing. To me even! It’s amazing how much someone can lie and let me tell you, she has mastered the art of lying. I have no respect left for this girl. Yes I will always love her. Or at least love who she used to be. She used to be a thoughtful, honest, caring person....
Fuck her. So over it.
Every slow song I listen to immediately makes me think of her. I still love her and it hurts so bad that she isn’t mine. I just wish I could hold her in my arms one last time.
Wellllllll something interesting happened. I hung out with some of her friends that live in the same hall as her. Literally like two doors away. And I’m not gonna lie, I had fun. Even though they were freshmen, they knew how to have fun. It’s funny to because one of them actually texted her and told her. I know she had to be a little pissed, but I’m ok with it. I did think about...
I’m gonna be honest… I miss her. Its tough not talking to her again. I’m thinking I might tell they guy about us hooking up. No one deserves to get cheated on. I guess I’ve got some more thinking to do before I actually tell him.
It’s been decided. We are no longer gonna talk to each other, at all. I already miss her smile. It sucks that I still dream about her almost every night. I wonder if she is thinking about me. This is probably for the best. Seeing her and texting her so much was really making it hard for me to face reality. Sometimes I wonder if we can ever be together again, but it looks like that is never...
December 2011
3 posts
It was the first Christmas I spent with her not being mine. But for some strange reason, we ended up spending it with each other anyway. I am actually really happy about that. I wanted to spend it with someone I really care about. Going to a party just wouldnt have been worth it. Spending time with her was the best way I can imagine spending Christmas. We are so comfortable around each other and I...
Well we hung out again. And, of course, I loved it. She’s so beautiful and she doesn’t even know it. It makes me sick that the new guy she’s with doesn’t tell her. It was also really nice to catch up with her family. I really miss them. But I still might be as confused as I’ve ever been. She always cuddles up next to me and wants me to hold her. She says I make her...
November 2011
1 post
Well I might be back to square one. We hung out a few days ago and it made me so happy. Spending time with her again made me realize again why I was and still am so in love with her. She told me she still loves me and thinks about me everyday. It seems like she isn’t happy. Yet, when we were together, she seemed genuinely happy. But after hanging out, she seemed like she completely regreted...
September 2011
2 posts
Today has been especially tough. I feel extremely lonely. No one is around and its making me miss her a lot. I always wonder what she’s doing. Or if she misses me. Sometime this weekend she is supposed to come get her watch and I’m hoping she wants to stay for a bit and hang out. But I have a feeling she won’t want to. Its probably for the best though. If I’m around her ill...
Well its been about three weeks since the worst day of my life. She broke my heart so many times this summer and I can still feel the pain almost everyday. I know its over but a very small part of me wants to believe that we still have a chance. But even if she came back, would I take her back? Even I don’t know the answer to that. I’m still so in love with her and can’t imagine...
July 2011
1 post
Life is really difficult right now. I’m torn. I don’t know what to do anymore. I think she still loves me but its hard to be sure. I always thought that her and I were permanent but I guess I was wrong. I guess the main thing is that if she loves me now, then I think I should be ok with that. Althought she could just change her mind the next day. Every moment I spend with her, it seems...
June 2011
1 post
It is really amazing how much we take for granted. We truly don’t realize what we have until we lose it. Its been two weeks and I still have one more to go. It almost seems impossible for me to survive this. I hope she feels the same way.